Has anyone ever referred to you as a "tortured genius"? What's your stance on the term? Do you believe that one must have a mental illness in order to create truly deep and worthwhile music/writing/art? Just something I've been pondering myself lately
I don’t think so, but then again I’ve never cared to ask, nor would I pay any attention to it if they do. I think having any sort of affliction (be it mental or otherwise) and being able to be creative either through that, because of that, or in order to deal with that, is a great and positive thing.
Sadly, I think it is insinuated that you are thought of as less than if there is something about you that isn’t “normal” or doesn’t function in the “normal” way. This is a giant bummer and I call shenanigans on that. I don’t know if there is anything wrong with me now and I stopped caring to find out what it might have been years ago. I choose to define what I may or may not have as, “Idiosyncrasies.” This allows me to move on and simply exist.
I am no expert. But I can tell you this: It took me 20+ years to deal with my shit and it wasn’t until I let go and stopped trying to define things that things started getting really good. I may or may not be bipolar, have crippling panic attacks, and exhausting OCD. I may or may not be an alcoholic. I made a decision to turn my life around and set about it slowly, day after day, step by grueling step, over the course of several years. I don’t know when it changed or how it changed, but it did and it is of no concern to me how that happened or what it all means.
I apologize. I tend to veer all over the place when trying to be concise in a short amount of time. These are my rambling thoughts.
To get back on point, I believe that anyone can create. There is no prerequisite. If you happen to have something different about you, whatever that is, I say use it. Tom Waits had a great quote that I am about to butcher. He said something to the effect of, “My favorite singers and artists are the ones who took that thing about them that seemed like a liability and turned it into an asset.”
I was a shy kid with asthma and a stuttering problem form Mahtomedi, MN. Yet somehow I made that work for me.
Justin Courtney Pierre, you make me feel so much better about myself, about the future. I have never related to any musician more than I relate to you, thank you for having the courage to express yourself the way that you have and thank you for being strong, because all of that has helped, is helping, me be strong. Thank you, I cannot say it enough.
"Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60’s. Or maybe I was just a girl… interrupted." - Susanna Kaysen, Girl, interrupted.
(Source: awful-lydelirious, via worldispaintedblack)
To me, there is nothing more disrespectful than faking a friendship with someone who has passed away. Let me elaborate, in high school, I lost a few fellow classmates for different reasons and each time there are people who would post on their wall after they died who I know didn’t even know the person but say things like “You were my best friend and I love you” and shit like that. Like death is tragic, I get that, and especially when a fellow classmate has passed, regardless of if you knew them well or not, it’s sad, and everyone is allowed to be sad by this fact because it is heart breaking and it does affect everyone and I get that as well. But like, my boyfriends best friend killed himself our senior year. I knew him pretty well, we had had a few classes together and talked and he was a great kid, and when he died, I was very disturbed and saddened by this. However, I wouldn’t go and say we were so close, because we weren’t. And today he would have turned 19, Christian was talking about it today, and this was his best fucking friend in the world, and I could tell he was a little down today which is understandable. But then I see these people posting on his page who I know for a fact didn’t know him in the slightest saying “you were my best friend and I love you and miss you” and write these fucking paragraphs and like again, these people all have a right to be sad about what happened to him, but in my opinion, it’s disrespectful to the people who actually WERE close to him to claim that he was their best friend just to seem like they were close. To me they just do it to seem like a good person and like they care and I just think that’s fucked up. Maybe I’m wrong, but when I see some bitch call him her best friend and write a novel about how she misses him when I know she barely even knew him because I asked Christian, it pisses me off because Christian was opening up to me about it today and he is someone who actually was his best friend, who spoke at his funeral, who is fucking hurting inside and has been. It really just makes me mad.
Got my make up did today by someone else, tis nice
This Snakejuice is basically rat poison. Everybody’s wasted.
Circa Survive - Holding Someone’s Hair Back
Realizing that people who used to be your best friends have become pretentious, insensitive assholes. It’s nice.